Ok, so it's 12:30 on a Saturday night, and I'm sitting at my computer, thinking. I find this happens more and more often recently. I thinking about how I hate guys and the way they treat me and my friends. My roommate just had her heart broken, and it kills me. Now, I often find myself playing the part of the older sister with this roommate because I am a considerable amount older than her, and I thinking about taking it a step further. I'm thinking I'm going to start pulling her respective suitors aside and saying, "If you hurt her, I'll rip your f-ing balls off." Lets see how many times her heart gets broken when I start doing that. LOL

I guess I'm not in the best mindset toward guys right now anyway, but, I'm in better shape than she is, and it makes me soooooo mad. Guys, don't you know what you do to us. Why does everything have to be a stupid game? Why can't you just tell us how you feel, so neither one of us has to get our hearts broken?



All That I've Got

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
I'm caught red-handed now I'm far from lonely
I sleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me

I need something else would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out and let me go back to sleep
I can laugh all inside I still am empty
So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me

I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've got

I guess I remember every clench you shot me
Unharmed I'm losing weight and somebody keeped
I swore so hard I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream and F- me

I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've got

So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream and F- me



Good night all

AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I really hate playing games, especially w/ members of the opposite sex. Why can't things just be straightforward? "Hey, I like you, I think we should go out." "Yeah, that sounds like a really good idea. When are you going to pick me up?" Why can't it be that simple? Dumb, dumb, dumb, stupid!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so afraid to put my heart on the platter to see what happens. I'm not sure I want it to be cut into pieces again, as it has been so many times before. And, I'm tired of certain roommates who will remain nameless who are engaged, who flirt w/ the guys I like. It's just not fair!! I guess I'm just really tired of everything right now. AHHH!!!!